Wednesday 14 November 2012

-end-

Ok I realized I didn't blog for a loooonngggggg time. Friendship problems coming up one after another. Anyway maybe I'm gonna delete this blog. 8D I got more blogs to handleeee. :D bye guys ! <3

Saturday 13 October 2012

Story #16

Well, back to blogging. It's been ages since I bloggeeddddd. Ok. So. I need to rant. But sorry, not here. Alot of people know link le. Nvm. Change. 08/10/12 . I love this date ok. <3 mm. And. These few days have been spending time with qiyi. ^^ like keep going out. Primary life gonna end le. Sad. Will miss all my awesome friends D: hais ~ must keep in touch la. So now. Practically everyday we play in class, for whole day. Will get bored of it. :/ nvm. Enjoy time. Will face the hard reality when it's 22 november. Now just play. :D nowadays, friendship problems come up one after another. Why can't we just clear them once and for all. Life. Why so complicated. K I shall blog till here. Looking forward to more fun times spent with awesome friends. Bye ^^

Tuesday 2 October 2012

Story #15

ok. need to update again. so ... last paper to go yea. and freedom is all mine. today is an awesome day ok. he is just so cute ~ two people go into the room each at a time and talk. seriously LOL. whose idea sia. sooo awkward. so me and him yea. ^^ today half happy half sad la. sighhh. guilty max. :< and kinda jealous. but i understand why okay. all because of awkwardness. is there such a word ? oknvm. hmm. so. just so fun today ^^ i seriously regretted taking hmt. one more day of torture. tsk. -.-
so now qiyi. oi. chill la hor. dont so angry okay ? it's over between your alr. dont need care anymore. so just, have fun. now is not the time to rant or vent or be sad or be angry k. its time to play. i know you will say its not worth it or what. but just a reminder la hor. okbye ~
to 'anonymous' :D
yea. i trusted you so much. and this is how you repay me ? ohokay. im speechless okay. really speechless. you promised us you wont say a single word out, and you did. dont promise next time if you ain't gonna mean it ok ? seriously ah. so pissed. -.-
today was supposed to go bowling. ended up slacking at sherwin's house. but its much better than bmt. no need perspire. 8D i threw things at him :D hehe. okay nothing else.
kthxbye ^^ loveyouall. :D

Tuesday 25 September 2012

Story #14

well. felt like blogging again.
hais. my emotions unstable now, awhile happy bcause of friends who made me laugh, awhile sad bcause of you. i think i made a mistake in loving you too much. rly a mistake. nt sure about your feelings towards me. but tbh, i dont really feel anything. well, maybe a little. so... today. somehow got into an argument again. you rank the same as my dog. know how important that position in my heart is ? cried so much for you. today, once more. when i saw your replies. you dont realise it, i guess, but i do feel the hurt kay. i dont wanna tell my feelings to you, i dont wanna get said that im asking for sympathy or whatsoever. so it's just between me and myself. i have been chanting "kevin is so cute." everyday, almost every moment in school, in class and when i see you. but. what do i get in return ? i get jealous, i get mad, i get hurt, it's all because i care. dont realise it ? seeing you constantlty getting close to girls, im dying inside. i told you once, twice, and didnt feel like repeating myself again. i"ve been constantly drawing your name in class, that sometimes i didnt pay attention. and all that chantings, my friends said im noisy. it was a joke, but then, i just dont wish to let you know all my feelings and emotions until today. i post on blog. whether you see it anot, i dk. but i hope you wont see it. it's my personal blog, so i have no other places to vent. but here. it may be a mistake that i gave you my blog link toooo. i got broken friendships with friends, because of you. yet did i blame you ? no. sacrificed so much. 2 more days to psle. yet im feeling so much for you. i got reallyreally upset whenever i quarrel with you. crying is weak. i get weak everytime. no one understands me i guess. most of the times i really look cheerful on the outside, but. who knows what im feeling deep inside ? yep, nobody. knowing that andrea is always there for you when you need help, knowing that both of you can get really close, be it form class or chinese class. yet i cant do anything. i wouldnt want to break friendships again, all i can do is to hide. i liked jason longer than you, yet i dont feel as much as how i feel for you. while jason is like much sweeter, everyday saying mushy stuffs. but i kept rejecting and rejecting. you ? i guess its the opposite. whatever la. i really die inside every single time i think about those times when i see you getting close to other girls. yep, im close to jiaqing. i admit that. he's register number is like 1 number after me. in class he sits infront of me. how do you expect me not to talk to him. but please, he got a crush. that he liked since p5. i always wanted to talk to you in school, but did not have the guts. seeing how close you and her were in sch, i only kept quiet. i just hope that you can really understand me.

Thursday 20 September 2012

Story #13

wa fk. i telling people things then you come eavesdrop. then go tell ' ' . how you expect me to trust you again sia. tsk. so pissed. nvm. eh people who have my blog link, im perhaps making this a dead blog, and gonna create a new one. and i wont give my link to anyone. so i can rant as much as i want if im really angry/sad/pissed/disappoimted, without anyone knowing. :D buhbye. and this update hor, ALL OF YOU DONT ASK ME WHO I REFERRING TO KAY. I WONT TELL. im telling here first ok. even if its glenda or anyoneee, dont expect a reply :) bye. 

Tuesday 18 September 2012

Story #12

venting ~
just replying to what you wrote ;
i treat everyone equally. maybe you dont think that way, but it's true. i dont love you so much ? well, thats your point of view. you chose to think that way. neh. dont you realise it yourself that you're closer to him in sch than i do ? seeing you so close to him, got think of my feelings ma ? you're the first one who i told and yet you're so close to him. k. thats natural reaction right. being so fking jealous. not only you, her also. she more la okay, cos same class. thats why when me and chelsea came down for recess, at stingray stall, he lean beside your, i kinda gave your attitude. you know that. put you forth. yea. i did asked you to write. you said something like wait or later. i told chelsea i dk how much you will write. so i dk how leave space for you. so she write first. and you put that middle finger, ever thought of how chelsea felt ?
oknvm. that one nvm. glendon house thing.
make me so angry. both of you asked me to go alone ? how would you feel if your were me ? dont want friend me ? if you choose to lose me, then i have nth to say la k. i rather go home than going alone k. who likes the feeling of being alone ? who ? i asked chelsea for opinion. all of us would rather go home. really la hor. your chose not to wait for me. and expect me to go meet your MYSELF.
whatever. i wont go.
should make myself happy. remember the time when wulaoshi came in and checked on us ? she saw my ..... and we laughed like dont know whatttttt. times when we shared bed and bathedd together :) i wont forget the memories we once made okay. wont forget you de. i can feel that you think im angry with you. justnow no, but now yes. i never blame it all on you. i repeat, you chose to think that i ditch you. your own perspective. how do you expect me not to get close to kaiting ? i sit beside her during hmt. in class she also come to my table. then normal sitting arrangement SHE SIT BESIDE ME for chi and eng lesson.
today is a bad day k. you're my (E) ? semo lai de. what's (E) ? ._. k im stupid i knw. im writing here, so that you can see and know how i feel for these past few days. esp today. the days when i see you and him being so close. when im not close to him in school. it may be awkward for me and him to talk, but really cant stand it. my closeeeeeee friend somemore. so i wont have any hatred or wut on you. she closer to him la, ik.

Saturday 15 September 2012

Story #11

so blogger is a place where we can vent all our emotions and feelings ? okay. aiya nothing much. psle in 13days time. and i still have time to blog. we still must live with reality ma. if results were meant to be 220, let it be lo. but i will still work hard la k. im getting more guai alr. :p but still no motivation to study. mr goh says everysecond is important. i guess im taking psle as a class test or wut. national exam leh. vion ah, wake up. dont keep having this mindset that you will score well. the truth is not what you expect. like what darrell said, life isnt what you really think. life isnt always smoooooooth. do not give up on yourself. perservere till the end until you die. this is what darrell told meeee. thanks yo. just some encouragement words la.
WALAO I MISS CHURCH. :<< today they got cafe duty. i wan doooooooo sia. hais. missed the chance. nvm. i wait k. i seriously hope my parents were christians lo. haisss. joline said everyone miss me :D haha, honoured la okay. i miss them tooooo. :c just want psle to freaking end fast and no more supp, i can play, i can go out, i can do everything i wan. can go churchhhhhhhh. <3 everyday listening to church songs. :/
life is really boring nowadays. fb so dead. twitter getting dead. he no online. idw this kind of lifee la. he used to be online everydayy. now at this time, 11.09pm, very exact k, i on fb just to see a reply. in the end dont have. so went to blog. nvm ba. thats the hard truth. bearrrrrrr.
now so far no problems le ba. life is kinda smoooth now. no friendship problems, nth. yay. felice posted " like this status if you dislike those people who keep posting status about you, say you gain attention all these. " SOMETHINGLIKETHAT. nt sure. aiya. bitch please. this is another way of gaining likes lo. wa. rly cant stand your character sia. i see your photo with sini. wan puke sia. sini so natural. then you smile until like dunno what. angeline wan show cleavage at least damn chio right. still selected to be model sia. you ley, like to show cleavage so much, then with this kind of face. i never say you ugly k. dont slut la. boobs very big meh. want show cleavage wait until yr boobs big then show k. now you show nobody want see ah. have, go geylang. i like to rant, like to judge, like to post status, problem ? you need chup ma. people indirect you you not happy. you indirect poeple then can sibo. like you never rant, judge and post status before. i got most things rant about you k. slut, bitch. you everything also can be la. negative ones. yr shorts tight and short like what. yr thigh very nice ? look into the mirror then say. whatever.
life and love is gettting too complicated. yea. life. studies. exams and tests more and more, harder and harder. now little bit also minus marks. results. sucha failure la me. nvm. failure is part and parcel of life. love ley. complicated about feelings, but im not la. awhile like, awhile dont like (qiyi). whats this world all about. now lisa and joline having argument. dunno when all this shit will end. friendships, left out. everyone will go through. me, once. then pubertyyyy. irritating k. i hate this stage. other then physical de. i eat and eat and eat. idw gain weight sia. envy jiaqing alot. thin like bamboooo even though he eats alottt. but too thin alr :c kevin terence alsooooooooo. i jealous ): then feelings. jealousy. hatred. anger. jelaousy kills the most. that feeling when your crush talk to other girls. nobody likes that feeling. sucks man. stress. all we get is nagnagnag. studystudystudy. whole day study. sadlife. never study tio nagged. make me feel guilty.
i hate this kind of life. im jealous of pretty girls, people with alot of freedom. i want that kind of life. i wantttttttt. D: